The arrival of my first child was clouded by the challenges of the COVID-19 pandemic. Giving birth during a time like this was incredibly stressful, and due to an early emergency birth, my baby had to stay in the neonatal intensive care unit, while I faced my own recovery due to some complications. I felt totally lost, disconnected from my daughter, and overwhelmed by the responsibility of caring for her, especially with the
extreme protection due to COVID. My inability to breastfeed added to my feelings of weakness, and I struggled to connect with my baby. I felt numb, emotionally distant, and constantly exhausted

It was a full year before I truly understood what I was going through, postpartum depression. The realization hit me when I found myself unable to bond with my daughter or feel any joy or sadness. I was simply doing everything without any feelings,, lacking focus and ambition. This year-long struggle was a dark period where I felt trapped in hopelessness. Desperate for a way out, I began educating myself through books and therapy. However ,some therapists focused only on medication, neglecting the deeper emotional trauma. I couldn't find peace until I addressed the problem's root.

With my second pregnancy, I was determined to be better prepared. I made a conscious effort to educate myself on every aspect of childbirth and newborn care, ensuring that my first daughter would not feel the pressure of a new family member. This time, I set clear expectations, prepared for all possible scenarios, and desired to make the experience as smooth as possible. The birth of my son was a healing experience, contrasting sharply with the anxiousness of my first experience. I felt empowered, confident, and capable

I dedicated myself to raising awareness about the importance of postpartum support. Through social media, I shared my story and highlighted the invaluable role of a postpartum doula. This period was marked by a strong sense of purpose and the desire to educate and support other
mothers.

Launching my Newborn Care Course was a big step. It
was a sum of all the knowledge and experience I had gained, now being shared with other parents. The positive response from participants filled me with pride and a sense of accomplishment.